BITTER GREEN FIGS
From The Tree Of Life
Exerpts From Chapter 16
of Book 2
8 books in this collection of Bitter Green Figs
THE SPIRIT OF DEPRESSION, THE BLACK MONKEY
The spirit of depression, the black monkey, causes the world to seek
after the flesh. It causes the world to seek after pleasures. It causes
the world to seek after people, and friends, and family, and
relationships, and most of all, physical pleasure.
The black monkey causes the Christians, the labourers in the vineyard,
to set down the basket and sleep underneath the vines overhead and even if
the grapes drop at their feet they will not put them into the basket. It
causes the labourers to grow weary unto death, to see no purpose, to see
no reason, to see no profit in even getting up every day, let alone
labouring for long term fruits and gains in life and eternity. Only the
pain and sorrow and the strength of the black monkey is felt at every
moment and the heavy weight of it. It wraps itself around you in that bed
like a warm blanket. It draws you to it like a magnet. It entices you to
sit down and rest with an exhausting fatigue. It says, "Come play a while. Take a rest. Sit down and eat. You are
tired, O so tired. The work will wait. Tomorow you will feel better. You
are so tired you will get sick if you do not go to bed. If you go to bed
you will feel better."
It waits for you in the bed and when you get up it will follow you with
enticements to return to the bedroom and the solitude of your own comforts
of rest. Every thought of resistance you make toward it to rise, and to go
do this, and to go do that, it will say, "Later.
Someone else will do it. It will wait for you. You don't feel like writing
music. You don't feel like singing. You don't feel like smiling. You don't
feel like being sweet. You feel lousy. Rest a while till you feel
better."
ARENT YOU TIRED?
Words & Music By Martha Miranda ©
Aren't you just tired of it all
Aren't you just weary of it
all
Aren't you just plain sick and tired of it all
Don't you wish it
was all over
Don't you wish it all would end
Don't you wish the sun
would set and never come up again
Cause you don't want to get up today and bear your cross
Let
somebody else do it
You don't want to get up today and bear your
load
Let somebody else do it
Aren't you tired of it all
Aren't you weary of it all
Aren't you
just plain sick and tired of yourself
And everybody else
Cause you don't want to get up today and work in the field
Let
somebody else do it
You don't want to get up today and sweat in the
vineyard
Let somebody else do it.
Aren't you tired of it all
Aren't you weary of it all
Aren't you
just plain sick and tired of yourself
And nobody else
You just want to get up and eat and drink
You don't want to work in
the vineyard
You just want to stand idle in the marketplace
And yak
your mouth all day
Aren't you tired of it all
Aren't you weary of it all
Aren't you
just plain sick and tired of it all
And everybody else
The black monkey hangs on your head wih his body wrapped around your
head and mind like a steel helmet. All day and all night long it will be
as a heavy weight upon your head and upon your shoulders. Recognize that
this monkey is one of the plagues that is sent upon the whole earth in the
last generation, that men will seek death and not find it, as written. It
is going to cause murderings, rapings, molestings, riotings, and all
manners of evils and wickednesses. It will cause suicides to increase and
increase for no apparent reasons.
Let me tell you something. We all complain. Everyone grumbles all the
time, and criticizing and condemning never ceases day by day but increases
day by day. And this black monkey has been in the earth since the fall in
the garden of Eden, for it is a terrible fruiting of sin. Now he enters
literally into people's minds and possesses them to do terrible atrocities
to themselves and others, and is a destroyer of life and everything good.
To take away the right of complaint would drive everyone insane. We could
not bear it. Grumbling is often a pathway to straighten out our own
selves, and put our own feet back on the straight and narrow.
Depression must come from the inside out. It must be gotten out of
there. It is like a festering splinter that must be pulled out. It must
come out of the mouth. It must be purified. It must be prayed away, cast
away, cast out, spoken out, commanded out, resisted, but it must not be
ignored. It must not be denied. It must not be simply tolerated. It will
not go on its own. It will return time and time again. It must be
resisted. Do not ignore depression.
Cast your burdens upon one another and pray for one another that you
might be healed. In this evil day, we must pray for one another and
support one another in the trials and pains of life as well as the burdens
of the Kingdom of GOD.
I have no problems with hearing your burdens, for as you speak them,
you are released from them and releasing them, having someone else help
you even to carry them. Write them all down and then burn them all up if
they are too personal for you to share with someone. Because of the sins
the world casts upon us to bear, we need to bear one another's burdens
concerning the sufferings of this life.
We need to bear the sins cast upon us by others and share their burdens
and carry the weak, and sometimes we are weak and need carried, and need
help having our own wounds bathed in love, needing to be cared for and
nurtured. We need to keep the black monkey off of each other's backs. Love
is always seeing the need and giving it, supplying it, and love is always
easing sufferings and sharing the sufferings of others. That is love. We
need to bear one another's sorrows, and supply one another's needs. That
is the fulfilling of the law of love.
As we speak our burdens, we are released from them. We speak and
somehow they are released and set loose from us and we feel delivered and
helped. We must speak and release our pains and sufferings. We must.
Sometimes we come to conclusions of faith, and cast our pains and
sufferings into faith, but this is but a temporary solution. For faith is
an illusion of the mind and it is comfortless to us. Faith is not a
tangible place to hide burdens or to find strength to carry burdens. For
our burdens come from the sufferings of being sinned against and faith
will not right these burdens nor give strength to carry them. There is no
faith that can comfort someone whose child has been molested and murdered.
There is no faith that can right such a horror. There is no faith that can
right a marriage that will not be restored. There is no faith that can
heal the heart of a spouse that has been betrayed by infidelity. Faith
must rest in an equitable solution, and to these things there are no
solutions. There is only a battle with the black monkey who preys on these
sufferings of this life like a blood sucking vampire. It is in substance
that comfort and strength are found.
Now to the faith that arises out of the mouth of the black monkey,
listen to it. And those who are snared by him are unwise indeed.
Wicked faith is that faith that snared Eve that said, "Go ahead. GOD did not mean that. GOD would surely not slay
you. He was not serious about that." He said to Jesus, "Go ahead. Jump! The angels will catch you that you will not
dash your foot on a stone."
The monkey says, "Go ahead, Martha. Buy it. GOD
will pay for it. Go ahead, Martha, get on the radio. GOD will pay for it.
Where's your faith? Do it. Buy it. Go do it. Where is your faith
anyway?" Yet Jesus said, "What man buildeth a
house without first seeing if he has enough money to finish building the
house?"
The monkey says..."Eat it. You will not get fat.
Drink it. You will not get drunk. Do it. You will not get pregnant. Do it.
No one will know. Where's your faith?"
Now, a man of faith that is going to cross an ocean will first, deal
with the severity of the ocean, and deal with its power, and get what he
needs to safely cross the ocean. That is true righteous faith. He does not
get in a canoe and paddle across, nor bob across the ocean on an innertube
singing hymns. These are not faith, but the lying spirit of faith would
say so! The true spirit of faith agrees with reality. Men say the
opposite. The devil says the opposite. "Go ahead.
Crucify Christ. He cannot die. He is immortal." So Judas betrayed Jesus
unto death, deeming He was immortal and could not die! Lying faith!
Listening to the deceiver, a lying faith! A corrupted faith!
Always remember the simplicity of truth. Truth and reality agree!
We must shake off this black monkey of a lying faith and come into the
reality of substance. We must work. We must pay our bills. We must rise
and labour and put our faith into substance, into reality. Faith does not
float around the earth in a substance form waiting for anyone who believes
in imaginations to reach up and grab it. Faith is substance. Get the
substance. The just live by substance, not the imagination of the mind
that is an enemy of GOD and the truth.
Jesus is not here working and labouring to pay for my electric bill. I
am. Jesus is not here cleaning the floor. I am. Jesus is not here cooking
the food I am. I am not doing these things by faith, but by necessity.
Therefore, through necessity we are tempted toward wicked faith. Through
exaltation we are tempted toward wicked faith. Through want we are tempted
toward wicked faith. Through desires we are tempted toward wicked faith.
Through doubts, the greatest monkey, we are tempted toward wicked faith,
and these things make monkeys out of us.
Without the truth, faith is a paper house of lies. Get the truth. What
is the truth? Find out the truth. Confess the truth. Walk in the truth. Be
no partaker of a lie. Walk in the light. Bring all things out into the
light. Allow no darkness. Keep the light on and keep it pure!
A man may see his thousands of friends around him, but not see the tens
of thousands of enemies that hide in the darkness. We can have all the
truth there is to find, and yet have one lie that is hidden and the whole
of the house will come down on the one lie. Without the entire truth, the
whole truth, everything lies in darkness.
Now, applying this thing again, this thing called faith, to us, to the
spiritual, we need now the substance. For it is the substance of the Word
that bears witness to the WORD itself. For when we believed in the baptism
of tongues, we received the promise, the substance. If we believe and
receive not we have believed the wrong thing or believed a lie, or only
have deceived our own selves that we have believed at all the truth if the
truth does not manifest the substance. When Peter began to sink in the
water, Christ reached out and took his hand and they both returned to the
boat. So the issue in that instance was Christ. The power was in Christ.
Maybe Peter was being humbled by the LORD and was made to know that the
power rested in the LORD and not in himself. Today, men believe the power
is theirs and that it rests in themselves, and that they own the power or
have the power, whether it be wisdom, or undersanding, or faith, they
laying claim to these spiritual things. I do not know from moment to
moment what the truth is or what faith is or what substance is or what
even my life and breath is. I must at all times and with every thought
acknowledge my GOD who is ever present in me living and breathing and
moving in me, and me? I am as spit on a hot sidewalk. I must hear the LORD
speak and then do what is spoken out of His mouth.
Our flesh is under attack. Our minds are under assailings. We are
targetted for death and destruction by the powers of darkness. Lest we
sink in the water and forget where and in whom is the power, lest we
become arrogant and high minded, lest we perish, lest we are weakened unto
death, lest we are disgraced by sin, lest we are cast aside as unworthy,
let us always remember that we are glorified in Him and He in us. For all
the power is in Him, and He is in us!
Satan has ravaged our bodies with death and the fruits of sin, but life
and immortality are in Christ, and He is in us. So as satan has claim to
our flesh because of sin and judgment and disease and death, we yet living
under the covenant of death, we are also glorified in Christ and in His
immortality and in His redemption. So whether we live or we die, we must
remember at every second and with every single thought, we are in His
glorification, even now, and as He is glorified, so are we glorified. For
though we see death working in our members, we also see eternal life
working in us as well as life in our members through the quickening power
of the Spirit of Christ.
Since the beginning of time GOD has desired only a people that hated
sin and loved Him. The gospel of light is that true, and straight and
narrow. Israel sacrificed according to the commandments. The shedding of
the blood of goats and lambs did not change nor instruct nor enlighten nor
cause men to hate sin nor to cease sin. They all the more pursued after
sin to then sacrifice. In Christ, the same has happened that men sin and
cast their sins upon Christ, polluting the sacrifice of His holy blood.
In truth, men do not even know what righteousness is, what GOD
requires, nor what even sin is. For even men cannot keep up with making
laws because sin so abounds and men despise truth and righteousness and
anyone who speaks it. Men make laws calling evil good and good evil. Those
who oppose homosexuality are called the transgressors and wickedness.
Those who hate abortion are called wicked and transgressors of rights. So
then, back to the sacrificing of animals for sin, that was not GOD's will,
nor GOD's desire. He wanted sin to cease. That was GOD's will. GOD still
wants sin to cease and bloodshed to cease. GOD killed the first goat and
made Adam and Eve wear the skins of death and still they repented not.
They smelled the blood and stink of the skins and still they repented not
of their transgression. They saw not the innocence that was slaughtered in
GOD's anger because of their sins. Now the sorrow of GOD comes down to
earth and torments the earth with its sackcloth and sorrow and blackness.
GOD makes all things as nothing and as blackness and as worthless that men
might see that true value lies only in the soul and its living or dying.
Now men turn upon men in this hour and blame and seek to escape this
blackness in any fashion they can as these black monkeys are running all
over the earth and swinging from tree to tree to tree and you no sooner
get one of them off of your back and here comes another. Especially in the
body of Christ and in the churches is this onslaught not even understood.
How can they understand? They are waiting to go up and out. They are not
taught anything at all concerning the great spiritual battle they are
waging against the powers of blackness and despair. So they eat more. They
fellowship more. They sing more. They dance more. They cry more. They go
to church more. They marry. They bear children. They buy lands and houses
and possess the goods of the world. They seek anyone and everywhere for
peace and safety. They tithe more to buy more, all in an effort to rid
themselves of these monkeys of despair that are multiplying everywhere and
in every place and every government and every country and in every single
nation of the world. And these monkeys are multiplying in the churches and
have given birth to a great prosperity doctrine, they feeding with a
frenzy on these sorrows, troubles, and afflictions, and cares of this
world and the anxieties of the flesh and this life. And women cling to
unclean men and unclean men cling to unclean women, as well as others, and
wonder why the church is coming down to the dust with a violence.
Christ has given us an understanding of faith, for the target of satan
is to cause us to not understand so we cannot have faith. But we have an
understanding of faith. Faith is the absence of fear. One who doubts is
not perfect in faith.
Satan's target is the WORD. He destroys the world through destroying
faith in the WORD. Even as Jesus hung on the cross and died, shedding His
blood for the sins of the world, the black monkey glared at Him, rejoicing
in his accomplishment of the demise of the Son of GOD. Jesus was well
acquainted with the black monkey. He was well acquainted with sorrow and
with grief. Jesus was triumphant, and in Him, we are also triumphant over
all the despairs of this world, over all the sorrows of life and over all
the sufferings of death. The modern gospel portrays Jesus as full of
laughter and rejoicing, filled with jesting, even foolishness. The
scriptures tell us He was a man acquainted with grief, with sorrow, with
sackcloth, with anger, with suffering, with pain, with anguish and agony
of soul. The scriptures also tell us He looked to the glory that laid
before Him. That is how He bore His sufferings! He endured the cross
beholding the glory that lay before Him. He looked through the eyes of
death at what lay beyond.
THROUGH THE EYES OF DEATH
Words & Music By Martha Miranda ©
JESUS looked beyond this life
To the glory hidden there
He looked
through the eyes of death
JESUS looked beyond himself
Through the
death and suffering down here
He looked through the eyes of
death
JESUS did not care if he lived or if he died
He looked only
through the eyes of death
Following the unseen hidden vine
Through the eyes of death the eyes of death
The vine so hidden here
is clearly seen
Through those eyes of death
Those beautiful eyes of
death
JESUS is the vine of life
That travels from here to there
That
beautiful unseen hidden vine
That vine that weaves us through our
pains
And takes us through that door
That beautiful door of
death
We must not care if we live or if we die
So we can look
through the eyes of death
Following the unseen hidden vine
Through the eyes of death, the eyes of death
The vine so hidden here
is clearly seen
Through those eyes of death
Those beautiful eyes of
death
Excerpts taken from the collection books of BITTER GREEN FIGS FROM THE
TREE OF LIFE, Chapter 16 of BOOK 2 of 8 in the collection.
Table Of Contents in this particular book 2 of Bitter Green Figs
are:
Chapter 15 On the Sayings of Jesus
Chapter 16 The Black
Monkey
Chapter 17 The Eternal Values
Chapter 18 The Treachery of
Wolves
Chapter 19 WORD of the LORD
Chapter 20 The Life of a
Disciple
Chapter 21 When the LORD Appears